When thinking of life as a movie, have you ever wondered if it were your movie or if you were just co-staring in someone else's? it bugs me a lot cause I see myself as the co-star in someone else's love story, where there's Him & Her, & I'm that other girl that dates Him for a while until he realizes he really loves Her. Or I'm the lead character's little sister who gets a punch line or two throughout the movie. Or maybe the best friend, four or five names down in the credits. I've tried looking @ life as my movie but it's like a bad attempt @ going solo, like Joey without the other Friends. I tried to be the star of my own movie but Ebert & Roper gave me 2 thumbs up my ass, sent me crying & told me to get myself together. & that's where revolutionizing my life comes in...
I don't really miss high school. I miss feeling like a have a home. Graduating kinda left me homeless. It really left me everything-less. Rebuilding myself, reinventing my rationales, that was suppose to be the revolution I needed to be the star in my life. My movie. But it's hard. I gave my heart away to someone. How stupid am I? Now I'm tryna revolutionize my life without a heart. (like that'll really work) To make life easier, my advisor sent me on a soul searching mission over the summer. I searched all over Philly, I searched Las Vegas DisneyWorld , Harrisburg
Where there use to be a plan there is now no rhyme nor reason. I just wake up everyday in the hopes that the Lord'll keep me living, James'll keep me loving, & my friends'll keep me laughing. I keep waiting for something to spark, consciously knowing that that spark is waiting for me. I'm just stubborn. I'm gonna star in my own life one day. All I know right now is that not everyone returns for the sequel…the ratings change with your mood…and we have no control over casting. So, until I'm the star…the revolution continues…
